I have a story to tell. Nearly 10 years ago I had an experience that has changed my life. I worked in youth ministry at a church. There was one particular youth who I connected with and was like a child to me. We talked about joys and pains of life as well as the difficult conversations teenagers have when they’re learning about God, Jesus and how to live in the world. One day this young person felt safe enough to tell me they were gay.
I remember my initial shock and all the questions. What was I going to do? What should I say? How should I act? I knew what I was “supposed” to say but I couldn’t bring myself to say it. In that moment it was nearly impossible for me to believe that God would be okay with my condemning them to hell. I couldn’t bring myself to reconcile the motherly love I had for this teen with the church teaching that homosexuality was a sin. This initiated a faith crisis for me. I struggled with my faith and the understanding I had of God, the bible and the church.
No one could have told me that that experience would be a defining moment in my life and ministry. Little did I know that God was beginning a work in me that would change me forever. It was the beginning of my journey to wholeness.
Since that time I have had ups and downs and experienced lots of joys and nearly as much pain. However, it has not stopped me from still moving forward and working to bring together sexuality and spirituality.
Today, I invite you to join me as I share 40 steps on my journey to wholeness. Every week for the next 40 weeks I will post a bible verse and reflection on how that verse has helped me on my journey thus far.
I am sharing my story with the hopes that it will help someone else. I am still very much in process and even a little bit nervous about sharing. However, I realize that in order to help other Black women reconcile their sexuality and faith, I must be open about my journey.
I look forward to engaging with you, sharing stories and learning from each other. I do not profess to be an expert. I am simply willing to share my story and journey with you as we all work to be whole.
Will you join me? Will you be whole?